October 2011

October 1st I woke up not feeling real great since I over indulged the night before at April & Joe's wedding, I actually got into bed all dressed up!!  But I pressed on and got ready to go, I went and picked Caley up from Lori's after she did both or our hair, we were off to see Elise get married to Rudy.  I cried so much it was such a great ceremony.  Steve & I went to the reception and I was not feeling real great.  They had the coolest thing that I had ever seen, a candy table!!  So we snacked on chocolate covered pretzels while waiting for dinner.  We had a good time but left a bit early because I was not feeling good.  I saw Dr. M on the 5th and my count was 23K, again we were doing nothing but waiting and hoping that it doesn't fall any lower.  On the 8th I went to the dentist for a toothache I had all week.  I had asked Dr.M if it would be OK to have dental work done and she said cleaning was fine but nothing extreme.  He just looked at it and didn't do anything to it, just said to schedule an appointment to fill the one tooth and we will look at the other one. Which is a tooth I cracked over a year ago.  On the 10th  Steve started his new job at the landscaping company.  That night I had a melt down again and totally lost my mind again!  Colleen took me to Loyola and they sent me to Glen Oaks Hospital in Glen Ellyn.  It was a very scary experience and I never want to go back there again.  My count was checked at Loyola before I left and it was 35K.  At that hospital the doctors were not concerned about my medical condition at all, strictly focused on the mental.  I can't blame them that is what they do.  I met some nice people and some really crazy people while I was there.  I wanted to go home so bad it hurt! The NLCS and ALCS games were on that week so at night when no one was watching the TV I put baseball on.  The one girl thought that since there were no guys in the room at the time that no one was watching the game!!  Oh well, thanks Steve for the love of baseball I have today!!!  The doctor there wanted to start me on a medicine called Celexa and I asked if they had checked to see if it would lower my count, because I had already talked with Dr.M about this and she said to make sure of that before I start anything.  SO I told the nurse that I wasn't going to take it unless they could tell me it was safe, she said OK I will tell the doctor you refused it!  I was like wait a minute don't try and keep me here any longer by saying that I'm refusing, I just want to make sure it's safe.  SO that night I saw the doctor and he looked it up and it said there could be a bleeding risk if taking that medicine!!!  Really so you want me to take it when I am in a hospital that is not giving me any MEDICAL attention?  He agreed and started me on Buprion, wellbutrin.  I got to leave the hospital on Friday the 14th!!  I was so happy to be out of that place and never look back!  I will never forget it for the rest of my life, which I plan to live for a long time now!!  I saw Dr.Egan on the 20th and he increased the dose of the Buprion to 150mg daily.  I started seeing my therapist twice a week at this point. On the 21st we went to the Halloween Hop at Pleasantdale for the last time since next year she will be in middle school. I had a great time hanging out with the fortune tellers!!  And Caley, David, Nina & Eddie went to the cake walk and won lots of goodies!!  On the 26th I had the absolute worst period of my life.  I was terrified something bad was going to happen to me because I was bleeding so much.  I called Dr.M and she had me go in the next day to have a count done it was a big whapping 12K!  They called me and told me I had to start on 40mg daily of prednisone and if the bleeding got worse I was to go to the ER.  I saw Dr.M on the 28th and my count was up to 14K so she said that she was going to look into what the next option would be, because I was against spleenectemy.  On Halloween on the way to see Dr.M I was on the phone with Steve and he was very emotional.  Not quite sure what his deal was that day but I kind of thought he was being ridicule's.  I saw Dr.M and my count had come up to 35K so we are lowering the prednisone to 20mg a day and waiting to see what happens.  Mom & I picked up David & Lola and headed to Pleasantdale for what would be the last Halloween parade that we would be going to.  I was holding Lola in my jacket because it was cold out.  The BFD came over and told me that we could not have the dog at school.  I was like sure like we are going to leave now.  The parade was over and I took mom, Dave & Lola home.  I went back and chatted with Jolene until the kids came out.  We got home and Caley wanted to go down to NinasCaley this year, but it was better this way because I could not walk that much any way.  I came home and waited for Steve to get here, he had been working at McCormick place today.  I called him at 4:40 when he still wasn't here to see what was going on and he said the traffic was bad and he would be here as soon as he could.  At this time I was sitting at home by myself because mom even after having a fight with David took him over to his cousins house.  At 5:45 Dennis called and said that they were on there way over and I was like really you are?  I had no clue they were coming over, but I was so happy that they were.  I called Pat to see when they would be back or if I should come get Caley and she said they were on there way back.  I then called Steve to see where he was and he said he was at home!  I lost it!  I look back at it now and realize it was so stupid to get so mad about this, but the steroids messed with my head so bad that I couldn't be rational.  I told him to go f himself and not bother coming over.  That was the beginning of a very terrible week for me.  I also have to mention that the St. Louis Cardinals won the World Series.