Life Happens

I have not posted here in awhile again, I guess its because life happens. I remember why we all used to have a journal that you would keep by your bedside so you could write your thoughts at any minute. I will try to use this more often as I know it can be a valuable tool for me. Since I wrote last a lot has happened, like life!! Steve was drinking again and entered a relapse prevention treatment center. He has completed that now and is home working hard on continuing his sobriety. All of this has been very hard for me. Since the last day I wrote I spent the very next day in the ER all by myself with the exception of the hour that Lori sat with me.  Thankfully that awful UTI that did not want to go away finally did.  I try not to worry to much what kind of effects having the infection for so long and being on antibiotics for so long could have had on the baby. I move forward to this week.  Caley has been having a real hard time with everything lately. She seems to cry all the time. This kills me. What can I do for her? I just don't know. Mom seems to think that it would be best for her if she goes to school some where else next year. But how can we do that? I want to help her! Besides that my emotions have been everywhere, I have no control over my life at all. I have so many issues to deal with and I can't get away from them for even one minute. I love my family and I am so grateful for them, I just need my own space to deal with my life! On that note, I have to get ready to go see the dr. Til next time!